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  • Writing About Writing

    by Ciara Knisely | Jun 09, 2017
    <p>For as long as I can remember, I&rsquo;ve loved to write. I am fascinated by the construction of sentences, the sounds of words, and the art of written language. </p> <p>And for what seems like forever, I&rsquo;ve been in a total slump. My brain has no fictional stories to tell. After interviewing countless people for the <em>Oak Leaves</em>, it seems that now I only know how to tell stories about other people. I&rsquo;ve hardly written anything just for fun throughout my two years at Manchester. Definitely nothing worth sharing. </p> <p>Until now, of course, as I actively write to you all about my frustrations about writing. What a paradox, right? </p> <p>So, I&rsquo;ve decided this blog will be a sort of writing therapy for me. Writer&rsquo;s Rehab. Maybe I can get that stream of <em>wordswordswords</em> flowing in my brain again. </p> <p>As an English major with a writing concentration, I can assure you that my situation is quite maddening. The poems I wrote used to scream out at me, itching at me until I got the lines down on paper. Now, I desperately want to feel the excitement of beautiful words flowing from my fast-moving fingers on the keyboard and onto my virtual paper. Instead, the click-clacking of my typing is only driving me insane. </p> <p>Can I even claim writing as a hobby anymore? I know I&rsquo;m not a failure; I can write a darn good essay. But if it&rsquo;s any more creative than this blog post, my brain just calls it quits. In fact, even this is a struggle to think of what to say. It&rsquo;s like a switch turned off, and now my creative veins run dry. I need some sort of transfusion. </p> <p>&nbsp;How did great writers in history think of their ideas? How do they think of them now? Is there a way to make yourself have more ideas? </p> <p>Seems unlikely. Maybe I am only meant to dream of having dreams, to write about writing. </p> <p>This coming fall semester I&rsquo;m taking Creative Writing with Beate, and I&rsquo;m terrified. What if I can&rsquo;t write enough content? What if I disappoint her? </p> <p>I can only hope that the course forces my writer&rsquo;s block to subside. I&rsquo;m praying that whatever skills I had before come rushing back. I have two years of recreational writing to catch up on. </p> <p>I&rsquo;m slowly coming to terms with the idea that maybe I&rsquo;m just not interested in writing fiction anymore, and I keep telling myself that it isn&rsquo;t a bad thing, even though I spent my elementary, middle, and high school years dreaming of all the fictional stories I&rsquo;d write one day. </p> <p>Instead, I&rsquo;m taking pride in the work I write about real life. Sadly, there are no dragons or ancient Irish myths involved, but I am starting to find the magic within this reality of mine. I&rsquo;m inspired by the people I&rsquo;ve met and their stories that I&rsquo;ve told, and my dreams are shifting from novel writing to uncovering and reporting on the next Watergate scandal. </p> <p>Maybe the truth is that the fictional world has started to bore me. I&rsquo;m more enchanted by the magic I can find in the world around me.&nbsp;</p> <img src="/images/default-source/default-album/ciaraknisely.jpg?sfvrsn=9f96be62_0" data-displaymode="Original" alt="CiaraKnisely" title="CiaraKnisely" /><br /> <em>Ciara</em> <em>Knisely &rsquo;18 is an English-Creative Writing major and Journalism minor, and hopes to continue her writing&nbsp;career&nbsp;in the future. She spends her time&nbsp;working at the Writing Center&nbsp;on campus&nbsp;and is a&nbsp;Co-Editor of the Oak Leaves newspaper.</em>