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  • The Fear of the Unknown

    by Stratton Smith | Mar 02, 2017
    <p>As I&rsquo;m approaching my final months at Manchester, I am overwhelmed by the fear of the unknown; the future is blurry to me. I&rsquo;m not scared that I won&rsquo;t be able to find a job and I&rsquo;ll look like a failure to those around me (yeah, that was last month), but I&rsquo;m afraid I&rsquo;m going to make the wrong &ldquo;first choice.&rdquo; One thing I&rsquo;ve learned about this little thing we call &ldquo;life&rdquo; is that one decision can take away other future decisions. To relate, for example, you&rsquo;ll date someone from a certain friend group and then they will perhaps have friends that you feel closer connected to or could perhaps see yourself with more than the current person you&rsquo;re dating... but you can&rsquo;t have them because of your initial decision to date their friend. I&rsquo;ve seen this situation play out before and it can get really ugly &ndash; that&rsquo;s just one example.</p> <p>So after graduation I can go several routes and I don&rsquo;t know which route will make me happiest in the long run. I could care less about the career that makes me the richest, most powerful, coolest, etc.; all I care about is what makes ME as an INDIVIDUAL the happiest. Unfortunately, we never know... but we can guess. Buuuut that doesn&rsquo;t help my fear. I&rsquo;m terrified undoubtedly on the unknown. I crave to have control of my life and mind, but I can&rsquo;t control the future.</p> <p>If there is one thing that I do know it&rsquo;s that everything will be okay. No matter what happens after graduation, I truly believe I&rsquo;ll be okay no matter what, and I have Manchester to thank for that. Manchester was the best fit for ME. I wanted to write that Manchester taught me how to think intellectually and critically, but that&rsquo;s also not true, because then everyone would have my mind and I&rsquo;m thankful they don&rsquo;t. I was given the right people for me, and it&rsquo;s hard to imagine that I would have found that anywhere else. Manchester DID give me the resources and surrounded me with amazing individuals in order to help me find my intellect and develop myself into a person I&rsquo;ve come to fall in love with.</p> <p>Do I go to graduate school (&lsquo;The road less travelled&rsquo; as I&rsquo;ve come to call it) to follow a passion in screenwriting that I&rsquo;m eager to explore? Do I go into the Sales/Marketing work force to start a life for myself in the real world? Do I put on pants today? These are all questions that I find are constantly consuming my mind, but when the time comes I know I have to make my move. No matter what decision I make or what opportunities will present themselves, I know I&rsquo;m prepared. Maybe I&rsquo;m not prepared financially, perhaps physically, or emotionally, but my mind is ready. I&rsquo;m ready to take on any challenge in a professional environment because I know that everything will be okay; I have Manchester to thank for that.</p> <img src="/images/default-source/social-media-and-official-blogs/strattonsmithf66ad1922d02625b9ff6ff0000763cab.jpg?sfvrsn=2468b362_0" data-displaymode="Original" alt="StrattonSmith" title="StrattonSmith" /><br /> <em>Stratton Smith &rsquo;17 is an English major, hailing from a small town just east of Indianapolis. Stratton is the captain of the tennis team, co-founder of Academic Probation, Manchester's improv troupe, and Vice President of the Theatre &amp; Society club.</em>